Some people focus on money, some people focus on women/ men, some focus on drugs, impressing other people, family, friends. Some people focus on living without a care, and then some people focus on LOVE.
I've come to realize I am guilty of focusing my life around loving, wanting to be loved, finding love, and staying in love.
If always wanting to be in a relationship is bad, then fuck it. I don't mind being wrong. I don't ever recall being single for more than 6 months. Because I hate being alone. And? A lot of people look at me like its wrong to always want to find a new guy after a break up. So what? I find nothing wrong with wanting a man to be there for me and vise versa. I'm such a hopeless romantic. I'm in love with being in love. I never been the type to trust a female with my thoughts, dreams, nor secrets. I find extreme comfort in pouring my feelings out to a man that understands then a judgmental female who doesn't, friend or not. My boyfriends always been my best friends. And currently I feel I'm soaking in my emotional roller coaster of wanting to spill my feelings and thoughts into someone else ears and heart. And the other way around I want to be there for him, I want to know everything about my guy. From every birthmark on his body to every family member in his family. I have so much to say about the crazy shit in my past and I need someone who truly wants to know what those things are. I need him to find joy in uncovering my mysterious ways and find out what lies underneath my what seems to be cool exterior. I need a guy who has been through the same struggle I've had to go through that way we both have mutual respect for one another.
I feel like I can't respect a guy who has have everything handed to him his whole life. That's probably why I'm alone now. I feel so shallow to take my love away from someone who has people already there for them loving them already. I feel like they don't and wont need me if I leave. So I end up leaving. I need to be needed. Period. Just like I need them.
so since LOVE is my focus... Trust me, I'm paying attention.
I've come to realize I am guilty of focusing my life around loving, wanting to be loved, finding love, and staying in love.
If always wanting to be in a relationship is bad, then fuck it. I don't mind being wrong. I don't ever recall being single for more than 6 months. Because I hate being alone. And? A lot of people look at me like its wrong to always want to find a new guy after a break up. So what? I find nothing wrong with wanting a man to be there for me and vise versa. I'm such a hopeless romantic. I'm in love with being in love. I never been the type to trust a female with my thoughts, dreams, nor secrets. I find extreme comfort in pouring my feelings out to a man that understands then a judgmental female who doesn't, friend or not. My boyfriends always been my best friends. And currently I feel I'm soaking in my emotional roller coaster of wanting to spill my feelings and thoughts into someone else ears and heart. And the other way around I want to be there for him, I want to know everything about my guy. From every birthmark on his body to every family member in his family. I have so much to say about the crazy shit in my past and I need someone who truly wants to know what those things are. I need him to find joy in uncovering my mysterious ways and find out what lies underneath my what seems to be cool exterior. I need a guy who has been through the same struggle I've had to go through that way we both have mutual respect for one another.
I feel like I can't respect a guy who has have everything handed to him his whole life. That's probably why I'm alone now. I feel so shallow to take my love away from someone who has people already there for them loving them already. I feel like they don't and wont need me if I leave. So I end up leaving. I need to be needed. Period. Just like I need them.
so since LOVE is my focus... Trust me, I'm paying attention.
soooo upfront and honest. i respect your idgaf attitute. i can relate cuz it seems like i am in relationships more than i am single...i just hope you arent ever the one getting your heart broken =) in my case ive mostly been the one to be heartbroken but that only led me to enjoy being single and when i finally did find a genuinely good guy i wasnt letting go of that. but i hope u find what you need...and never settle cuz youre too good for that!
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