S H A N N I S; Sometimes I wish I can just change my name, change the person I used to be, change my birthday, my environment, how many boys I've kissed, how many boys I've dumped, what my grades were in high school, & who I hung out with in junior high school. Everyone hears and sees the person I used to be, a fighter, a cheater, a liar. NO ONE is perfect; so they say imperfection is beauty. Everyone walks around like there perfect but down under all the clothes, the popularity, the money we all claim to have, and no matter how much you change and grow; there's always the skeletons in your closet that just do not leave us alone. So none of these material things matter. You will still be the person people portray you to be. It will never stop following you. You can tell people the whole truth, nothing but the truth, so help you god or you can tell people nothing but lies, and live in SIN. Either way life isn't what is all cracked up to be. People will never stop judging, just like I will never be able to change the person I USED TO BE.
So with that being said and really thinking about it, NO, I do not regret anything I've done in the past because those things are what make me who I am today. I do things according to my mood. I do what I want, when I want and no one has ever told me different. I love my life and sometimes I might endanger it and people look at me as if I'm crazy, well guess what.. I AM. How can you live life being careful all the time? Then again that's the difference between your life and mine. I go for what I want, and 96% of the time I get it,, why? Because when you believe you can achieve it! As corny as that sounds, its true. So to the people out there who want to criticize my life.. Frankly I don't give a shit. I'M LIVING... WHAT ARE YOU DOING???
My name is SHANNIS. & this is MY life.
I'M extreme and intense. I am very deep and there is always more then what meets the eye. I present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying inside is a tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion, with a strong will and a persistent drive. I have a very penetrative mind, don't be surprised if I ask a lot questions, I'm just trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. I always want to know why, where and any other possible detail I can possibly know. I'M very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. I also tend to dominate and control anyone that lets me, or anyone that I find weak. Its hard for me to respect people but when I find a person that I respect, I hold them close and are treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, I have great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to me, & I'm known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because i need control to make me feel safe.
